Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Depth Perception

Pretty soon, there'll be no fence between Duke and Mr. Farmer

Ignoring the basket of languishing works in progress, I’ve cast on another neck warmer. I was envious of Mareseatoats’ soft wool so I went looking in my stash for some of my own.  I found what was leftover from a scarf I knit my friend Sr. Jeanne. This one is in a lovely lavender alpaca, which isn’t a bulky weight yarn, so it’s being knit double stranded.  It's incredibly soft and comforting.


For this week, I’ve needed something soothing to knit. My young hospice patient isn’t doing so well. The nurses have been visiting her and her family day and night, and the evening visits have fallen to me. While part of me wants to be the one on duty when it’s time, the other part of me just dreads the call. I find myself updating my laptop twice a day to see if she’s fallen off my roster. This case just breaks my heart--so I knit-- while thinking about and praying for her release from suffering. I hate cancer.

14 comments:

Jane said...

Beautiful knitting. Cancer - not so beautiful. Thinking of you and your patient.

Ruth said...

Sometimes it is so hard when a patient dies - you just get so attached at times.

Love the picture of the snow we have been HOT and currently most of Eastern Austrailia is sweating in record heat.

Miss 376 said...

Thinking of you at this time, must be hard when they are so young, Hope the knitting helps to soothe the nerves

Anonymous said...

Testing, 1, 2, 3. No deletions please.

U R my number one!

debra said...

I have no words of wisdom, just a hug.
We've been involved with hospice nurses 3 times in my family. You make a difference in people's lives.

Rudee said...

Jane, thank you.

Ruth, if you take half of our cold and we take half of your heat, I think things would be tolerable.

Miss,the knitting does help.

Anon-you are my honey. I can't delete you.

Debra-thanks for the hug.

Brenda said...

Lavender is soothing... to me anyway. It is lovely what you are doing, both the knitting and your nursing skills...and big heart.

Karen said...

The color of your yarn even looks peaceful. If we could take apart a knitted project and write what we were thinking, each knit along the way..what a story we would have.
I love Hospice nurses. It's my goal to be one of you, someday.
Thinking of you and your young patient as I sit here knitting my mittens.

Sandy said...

I'm so sorry about your patient, how touch that must be.

The color of that, did you say alpaca, is beautiful.

Rudee said...

Brenda, you always have the perfect words. Thank you. I've put the framed picture up for my profile. It's perfect.

Karen, I hope your orientation is going well.

Sandy, it is alpaca and it's incredibly soft. It's also done and awaiting the perfect buttons.

Betty Flocken said...

Beautiful color scarf! I'm praying for you as well as your patient. The "Death Vigil" is so hard for everyone.

Rudee said...

It is hard Betty.

distracted by shiny objects said...

I am so sorry, babe. Sending prayers your way for peace and comfort. Some things never, never make sense or seem fair.

Winifred said...

That must be so hard for you. Always seems to be worse at night too.

That wool looks so soft and cuddly. Lovely shade.