Sunday, September 11, 2011

There's more room in a broken heart

Or so Miss Carly says. I tried so hard to stay away from the media blitz surrounding the 9/11 anniversary. I did OK last night, choosing to watch the University of Michigan pull a rabbit out of hat instead of talking heads and reruns of videos that I still find so disturbing.

After the game, I watched the History Channel program on the building of the new World Trade Center and the memorials. I felt a documentary better suited my mood. I shed a few tears when the architect spoke of his vision with the water falls built in the footprints of the twin towers.

Today I skipped around a few channels, landing always on a news station where the memorial was being broadcast in the background, but news anchors were front and center putting their own and personal spin on the memorial. I switched around for a more solemn station and found one where nobody was speaking, except the family members reading names. I began to cry at the sheer enormity of souls lost, the palpable grief of their survivors and the circumstances of that fateful day. As names were read, they were also displayed with their ages next to them and sometimes a photograph. As it did this day ten years ago, the utter meaninglessness of their deaths and the youthfulness of those lost shocked me. As I listened to their names, the sentiments of those reading them and watched water fall down the walls of the monuments into the deep abyss of the fountains, I felt grief anew.

I don't personally know a soul who was murdered on that day, but I know a part of my heart was broken for them none the less. I hope and I pray that their loved ones have found peace and clarity in the years that have passed us by.

It seems I need to plan a trip to New York sometime soon. I simply have to see this sacred site with my own eyes.


I wish you all peace on this very solemn day.


14 comments:

The Bug said...

We've avoided watching any coverage at all. I don't think my heart could take it - & I KNOW that Mike's heart couldn't. Shoot - I was about sobbing just reading my comics today :)

A lot of the things I've read have talked about healing & peace - I hope that's what's happening for people today.

Empress Bee (of the high sea) said...

i know honey, i know...

hugs, bee
xoxoxoxoxo

Rose said...

You know, I visited the World Trade Center in 1997, and have been to NYC often the past three years since my daughter moved up there, but have yet to steel myself enough to visit the site. Too intense, I think. One day maybe.

SkippyMom said...

God Bless America. Amen.

I think we all felt this way today Rudee.

I teared up watching the opening day of football. We'll never forget. Nor should we.

Hugs.

distracted by shiny objects said...

I hope I do not sound unpatriotic if I say I feel all grieved out. The ballet yesterday had several very moving pieces, including one to a Johnny Cash medley, which was heartbreaking and today I turned on the oldies station hoping to hear something not-a-requiem and they too were replaying that day 10 years ago. My heart honestly feels bruised.

Stephanie V said...

Our world sure changed that day. I can clearly remember exactly where I was when this happened.

Rositta said...

I share the sorrow of all Americans. I was alone that morning my husband having left for Greece the day before. I remember not being able to tear myself away from the tv day and night. I will never forget and I hope the world doesn't either. I have been able to avoid all the news coverage simply by being in Greece at that time of the year, we don't get CNN. I'm not sure I'd want to watch it all over again anyway. Take care...ciao

Finding Pam said...

I said I was not going to watch any TV that day. I did watch and I am glad that I did. I felt a healing of the families.

I see just how strong they are after ten years. They don't have the option to forget. I pray for peace and healing for all survivors.

sapphireblue said...

I avoided watching it yesterday, but inevitably saw so much on the morning news. So heartbreaking.

Brenda said...

Believe or not...this was the first year I actually watched the live coverage of that day. I really don't know why it took ten years to see this. We were out of town on that day and trying to rent a car to get back home....so we missed all the live coverage. Just shocking and horrible. Beyond anything anyone could imagine...except for the evil ones who caused it.

NCmountainwoman said...

It was indeed a solemn day, wasn't it? I avoided the television all weekend while my husband soaked up every news show there was.

Denise said...

I avoided coverage. I really feel for the families.

Devon said...

That awful morning my firefighter hubby was sent to the twin towers as a rescue specialist for FEMA. I didn't see him for 2 weeks as he tried so hard to bring someone out alive.
I was so worried the pile would collapse on him. He doesn't talk about what he saw and absolutly will not watch any tv coverage about that day. I watched some coverage yesterday and all the anxiety came back.
I won't do that again. In the future I think it will be healthy to say prayers for the victims and their families.. as well as for the rescue workers who I know still live with their painful memories.

Gail said...

I am glad I was not alone in avoiding the specials and rehashing of that disaster. It is not that I feel it any less, nor, that I don't care...I just could not bear to see it again.